Maybe I’m just unlucky, but it’s so hard to find trustworthy people nowadays. People you can really depend on and call them your friends.

I’d like to have someone I can chat with, or call, and they would help me if I had a problem. Or at least listen. But instead I have to rely on the internet.

I feel like no one truly cares about proper friendships anymore. There’s no honesty. I would often like to just hang out, casually watch a movie or something simple like that, but they say they’re busy. Everyone is always busy. It’s hard enough for me to even ask something of someone because I used to be painfully asocial, but now that I’ve grown a pair I’d like to change that. I get my hopes up but end up feeling rejected, as if I was bad company and boring. Or as if I had some weird perverted intentions besides wanting to simply have company. I know when I am being avoided, I’m not stupid.

Then when I complain about being forever alone, I get stamped as a whiny attention seeker. And no one wants someone like that around, right? Great.